Well, I was lurking around Amazon Prime Video, wondering if I could find something I could watch and relate to. I picked up on “As We See It,” the pilot. A quick about: Three diverse autistic people struggle and triumph in an apartment in Los Angeles. Also, there is a psychological aide there, and they have various relationships around them.
I have never related so much to a character than I did the girl who wanted to have a relationship with someone and, sadly, “be normal.” Of course, she was twenty-five in the show, while I am in my forties. My experience points to happiness coming from ditching the normalcy strife and just embracing my authentic, autistic self. (Sure, I can mask and put up a neurotypical act just like Sir Anthony Hopkins, but I find that exhausting.) The girl on the show clearly has not found that out yet, so she’s striving for what she calls “normal.”
I must confess, now, that I have been too hard on Sheldon Cooper of “The Big Bang Theory.” Another autistic character acts a lot like him, but it’s apparent that he has little to no control over it. If, maybe, Sheldon himself was revealed to be autistic, I would not have ranted and raved about his stereotypical behavior in previous entries.
In a third character, who has higher support needs, there is a struggle to get to a local coffee shop through a small walk through a chaotic and overwhelming street of Los Angeles. Seriously, the autistic brain is fairly chaotic without the intrusions of loud noises, pop-up dogs, random cyclists and other people jumping out in front of you. SPOILER ALERT: It is conquered one evening. But who knows if the character can handle it another day?
Some of you ought to know that I secretly call autism Chaos Brain. Imagine a messy house. There is stuff laying about everywhere. Nothing is in its place. Clothes, dishes, stuffed animals, records, whatever, but it’s all out and everywhere. This is a proper metaphor for the autistic brain. Now do you see who we are so overwhelmed by outer stimuli coming into our view? It just piles on and on until, in essence, you get something so chaotic, it overwhelms. So, when you come across our autistic selves being hesitant about something, ask us if we can focus on one thing. It helps.
I am just letting the neurotypical brain into my brain space. It’s not easy, is it?
I’m not putting down your particular type of hard. I’m just letting you into my own type of hard.