Nice Try, WebMD. I’m Not Having a Heart Attack.

When a person goes to WebMD, they have to be careful. If you look hard enough, there can be something alarming among your so-called diagnosis. I was typing in what my nausea could be after eating too much of a sugary drink, and there were a few alarming ones, such as “congestive heart failure,” “viral gastroenteritis,” and the most alarming, “heart attack.” My arm isn’t drooping, I’m not faint, so, I don’t think I’m having a heart attack. Nice try attempting to cause one though, WebMD. I almost titled this post “I’m Sure I Don’t Have Testicular Cancer,” but since I am a cisgender female, at least that has been ruled out. Anyway, the point is that you have to use critical thinking, even on sites as supposedly benign as WebMD.


Thought on New Jersey’s Childhood Autism Rate

For those who do not know, screeners for autism discovered a high occurrence of autism among its younger children.

I would like to know if I have reached anyone autistic from New Jersey, and ask them a few questions about the place.  

Namely: Is there anything where you live that benefits you, and possibly other autistic people?  

See, the thing is, people gather where it benefits them. In southern California, for example, I saw large Latinx populations near Catholic points of interest, like churches and Catholic run schools. My best friend at the time lived close to Mater Dei High School, so I could observe this firsthand.  

So how does this relate to New Jersey and its autism rate?  

My theory is, undiagnosed autistic people unknowingly gathered in New Jersey for its benefits. They had autistic children, and there is now a bunch of them.  

Remember, it is only recently that autism has even been diagnosed properly across the board. 

In case you don’t know, I’ve never been to New Jersey. I would need to go there, or get firsthand information, to see if this is true. 

I’m just curious.  

Take Care of Yourselves, Everyone – Especially You, Greta Thunberg

I do apologize for those quick shots (now deleted). I was in a very dark place, not really taking care of myself for a while.

I’ve rested, eaten good food, and taken care of my needs, and to be honest, it has really improved my mood.

I can now see how essential self-care really is. Sometimes, you need to take a pause and breathe. You really need to take any medicines required. (It usually only takes a minute for me.) Of course, I’m not going to sit here and lecture you when I’ve just come out of that dark place.

I really do applaud Greta Thunberg – her passion, her drive, her calling attention to a problem clawing away at her mind – and I just get sick that people want her to have a meltdown and cause her to be locked away because she’s autistic. Such evil is not to be trifled with. It fights to the death. But we autistics fight to the death, too.

What to Avoid when Looking for a Place of Worship

Content: Religious Talk, talk of cruelty and miracle cures, suicide, ableism

Now, I know that many of us autistic people are atheist. This is not for them, unless there is a place where atheists gather. I don’t know if there is.  For those of religious affiliation, sadly, the places of worship are filled with pitfalls of “autism awareness” and hatred. Miracle cures, ABA, prayer, the belief of autism meaning brokenness…this is by no means an exhaustive list of things to avoid concerning autism and worship.

If you sense a skew towards Christianity, please consider the fact that I am writing from personal experience. As we approach Easter, I am reminded that we need a ways to go in the church.

  1. Avoid places peddling “miracle cures.” – The church known as Genesis II still peddles that MMS stuff – basically drinking bleach for the unknowing. (Isn’t drinking bleach a form of suicide?) Do I really need to state that facing death is a risk of drinking bleach or shoving it up a child’s rear end?
  2. Avoid places who believe autism is a moral failing. – There is an ancient belief that any known health problems is a punishment from the Almighty. This is often a fallacy promoted by what is known as the Prosperity Gospel. “If you believed, your child would not be autistic.” Well, that is definitely not a tenet of Christianity, which is my belief system. Jesus did state in the Bible that “In this world, you WILL have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” I am focusing on the first statement for now, because I believe it to be true. No amount of belief is going to change the fact that you will have trouble.
  3. Avoid the anti-vaccine place of worship. – This goes without saying. If you can prevent the spread of anything with a shot, go right ahead. It is God’s way.
  4. Avoid the Hypocrite. – In the church, we call them Pharisees. Simply put, they look good in the pew, but there is little evidence of following their faith outside their place of worship. Pharisees were even called “whitewashed tombs,” meaning they look good on the outside, but inside they are full of death. Unfortunately, you may not be able to avoid them in any church.
  5. Avoid the Graceless. – There is a parable in Christianity in which a man was forgiven a large debt, though did not forgive another man a debt against him. In short, the larger forgiveness was canceled. Do I even need to explain the pain of holding a grudge?
  6. Avoid those who will not accept you. – This is what I dislike about the Church of Scientology. In the case of John Travolta is literally took a judge asking him under oath for him to admit his son Jett was autistic. And by then, Jett had died. What kind of church is so cruel that it rejects autism’s existence? You may need to educate on Autism Acceptance to the place of worship, but if they accept the teaching of Autism Acceptance, stay. Do I even need to explain the pain of rejecting people with real problems? The church is a hospital for sinners, not an elite club for saints.

In short, a church that only accepts the perfect and those without problems is empty. If they will not accept you, shake the dust off your feet and go find another one.

Hyper Connectivity

Now, it has been long theorized that the autistic brain is hypo connected, meaning the neurons are not as connected as neurotypical people. Recent studies of autism genetic mutations (their word, not mine) reveal there is also a thing called hyper connectivity, meaning the neurons are even more connected. You want to know what I say to that? 


I knew there was a possible explanation to hyper sensitivity. I mean, have you even heard of sensory overload?  

World Autism Day Stream of Consciousness

So, it’s like World Autism Day or something….Autism Speaks, which wants to Make Autistics Neurotypical Again – as if they were neurotypical in the first place – still holds the TODAY Show firmly in its ironclad grip. I could not watch it after my mother left the room to lay down, to be honest.

With that out of the way, I would like to spend this time promoting Autism Acceptance, by describing what I do in a typical week. (A typical day is not too achievable.)

Monday, I clean the kitchen. Tuesday, I dust and vacuum the Great Room. Wednesday, I clean the bathroom. Thursday and Friday, I clean a bedroom each. I rest on the weekend, I guess. Every day, I cook 2-3 meals, do the dishes from each, walk a small dog, and help my mother with various tasks around the house (apartment).

I can change a tire. I can act neurotypical in public; I mask pretty well.

Apparently, since I’m not Dustin Hoffman or Jim Parsons or something like that, I fool people out of thinking I’m autistic.

Do you know why I prefer to call myself autistic?

Because I am autistic; it is in my DNA. There are a lot of eccentrics in my family, many of them showing autistic traits. Many people in the family refuse to accept this (poor things), while it is an accepted reality among others.

I have a young autistic cousin, in fact. I hope he can have a better story than mine, one of acceptance. Kids like him are why I fight.

I want autistic people to have an adulthood that does not include bitterness, like mine did for a while. Yes, I was bitter for a long time. The trouble is that I questioned my own rights to do something like not be able to handle a glass coffee press, for instance. (I learned almost too late there are metal ones which work just fine.) I don’t want my cousin to question if it’s okay to exist in his current form, quirks and all.